Sunday, February 21, 2010
haven been to much blogging lately.. well, cant blame me for this... have not touched my com since the last time i blogged =/
well... i cant type out everything that happened for the past few weeks.. can check out people like yq de blog to see wadd the nc gang did~
not exactly in the mood to blog bout today but shall do so anyway cos theres nothing much to talk about...
well~ woke up at like 4.40 AM to prepare for work. this is the 1st time i reach lighthouse at 6.20!! (with papa la..) like freakin early~ hahahah. kinda tired at 1st but then felt super awake.. we ar4e the 2nd earliest t reach.. ahsu was 1st. he wante to help johnny they all prepare but then realise that the all overslept and he came so early for nothing~ =/ poor guy~ hahas. anyway, shall skip details.. its like usual working style.. got a function for the elderly and yuqi wanming and 2 of wanmings friend came to help out. nothing much for me.. like normal.. but unlike other times with martiny nn suling, yuqi keep complaining bout wanting to sleep, wanting to sit down etc etc.. i kinda got used to it le, but she cant stand it. =x anyway, the elderly today are rather nice, quite friendly..
then after work, we went to meet up with the nc gang for jk de bday celebration!! didnt realli plan cos i dun think surprises work anymore =/ so yupp. jus a normal nc gathering. me nn yq were delayed by work nn we were late. but not the latest! LOL. went to qj de house to play~ played blackjack with chunleong as the banker. lost 1.20 and i decided not to play anymore. went to sleep on the sofa... DAMN COMFY! =D cos the guys are super noisy.... i didnt realli fall asleep.. like wake nn sleep, wake nn sleep.. just that the whole time i didnt wanna open my eyes so they thought im asleep despite the noise. super fun when hanging out with them la!! x33
dunno wad got into them la.. keep disturbing me today.. somehow yq is not e target today. SHIT! then we took some group pics and head out for dinner.
this is when there is a sudden turning point. due to family probs ( which i dun wanna type out..) my mum insist that i go over to ahma house. i told her i will not be that early.. play with nc gang at least play till 11 de mah~ then she like super bu shuang.. smsed a bit more then she say if i you xin i will not go lan with the nc ppl and go ahma house. it makes no sense to me la! i mean, its like wad? pick family or friends. i cant possibly ps them nn go off de mah.. and i dun wanna... mum always insist i go back early when there is this kind of nc gathering, like the whole big group. bloody saddening to know how much fun u missed after looking at their pics. tried to explain to her that she dun need me there to warm up e crowd and that she can do it herself by taking the cards out and asking people to play. then i dunno wads wrong with her she dun wanna reply me. so i call her, wanna ask if i can go home maybe slightly later at bout 10.30 - 11. she pick up e phone, very rudely ask 'wad u wan?' then im like ' can i go home like slightly later?' cos i thought they will be playing cards till damn late mah.. i didnt even get to finish my sentence before she pass the phone to my dad. then my dad was like ' wad u wan? ur mummy dun wan talk to u' like wtf ?!?! wad did i do? i haven even started negotiating. was beside yq they all when he said that. i was so sad my tear are overflowing.. heng i manage to control. randomly replied a 'nothing' to my dad and hang up the phone. briefly told yq bout it. she has roughly the same thinking as me. i dun wanna go back so early.. but then if i dont, mum will be super upset. maybe dad too. thought for very long whether to stay with the nc gang or to go papa house (ahma at papa house)..
kept super quiet.. totally no mood to talk at all.. in fact i cant talk.. im suppressing my tears la. if i start talking or thinking about it i sure cry de lo... qj, yq, js, gavin, jk and wj tried to make me laugh~ esp js nn qj. tried my best to smile back cos i dun wan them to worry. the moment i left them for papa house. tears started flowing.. heng got bring tissue. =.= cried like a baby at the bus interchange nn on the bus la! ahhh.... realli wanted a shoulder to lean on and people telling me its okay. but im alone so i thought jus let the tears flow la.. will dry up soon.. manage to stop it when i reach papa house.. those people are already playing cards la!! laughin like nobodys business. making noise... cant help it. went to the toilet to cry again.
totally ignored my mum after that till now. even when i go play cards, i sit beside mama instead of mummy. mum was like 'here got seat here got seat' but i dun wan. she may feel like 'talking to me' now but i dun wanna talk to her. its too depressing to think that my mum force me this way to go home. i thought everyone was in a bad mood and decided to come home but they re all playing cards! like wthh did u call me come for? help u entertain ahma? pull me away from my pals n gals? i dunno wad to think. like all the negative thoughts are filling my mind and somehow, all of them hurts. and u know wads worse? i think my mum told my 5th nn 9th aunt bout it or something. they 2 keep attitude me. my ahma ask me eat dinner le ma? i say i dun feel like eating so never eat, jus pei my friends eat nia. then ahma ask me eat i was like' no mood' cos realli no mood mah~ my 5 th aunt came over nn like shouted at me ' jus say u eat le jiu hao, say wad no mood!' im a bit shocked.. a bit being shot. but dun wanna reply so i jus say, ' yah... eat le eat le..' then walk off... kept leaning onto my ahma today. ahma realise something is wrong with me, but my dad, dunno purposely or wad, go tell my ahma that maybe nothing happen la, jus tired cos i woke up early today. aham ask is it true, i jus say yah~ then smile cos i dun wan her to worry. then can see 9th aunt also attitude me cos u know when playing cards that time, my cousin can make a lot of noise but if i laugh a bit louder she will start staring.. bloody irritating. ahhh!!!!
the best part about going to ahma house today is that i ate steamboat with mama papa nn ah ben. jus had fun chatting random stuffs... so simple but sweet~~
dunno wads the problem with adults la! like seriously. i dun freakin hell care wad ahma did to 9th aunt la! know that she dun realli fancy me and the feeling is mutual. but i LOVE ahma papa nn mama!! i grew up with them!!! i dun care wad u adults wanna do, start war or something but im not taking sides. and dun get me caught in between! im a neutral state okay!!!!! GET ME OUT OF IT!
well... i cant type out everything that happened for the past few weeks.. can check out people like yq de blog to see wadd the nc gang did~
not exactly in the mood to blog bout today but shall do so anyway cos theres nothing much to talk about...
well~ woke up at like 4.40 AM to prepare for work. this is the 1st time i reach lighthouse at 6.20!! (with papa la..) like freakin early~ hahahah. kinda tired at 1st but then felt super awake.. we ar4e the 2nd earliest t reach.. ahsu was 1st. he wante to help johnny they all prepare but then realise that the all overslept and he came so early for nothing~ =/ poor guy~ hahas. anyway, shall skip details.. its like usual working style.. got a function for the elderly and yuqi wanming and 2 of wanmings friend came to help out. nothing much for me.. like normal.. but unlike other times with martiny nn suling, yuqi keep complaining bout wanting to sleep, wanting to sit down etc etc.. i kinda got used to it le, but she cant stand it. =x anyway, the elderly today are rather nice, quite friendly..
then after work, we went to meet up with the nc gang for jk de bday celebration!! didnt realli plan cos i dun think surprises work anymore =/ so yupp. jus a normal nc gathering. me nn yq were delayed by work nn we were late. but not the latest! LOL. went to qj de house to play~ played blackjack with chunleong as the banker. lost 1.20 and i decided not to play anymore. went to sleep on the sofa... DAMN COMFY! =D cos the guys are super noisy.... i didnt realli fall asleep.. like wake nn sleep, wake nn sleep.. just that the whole time i didnt wanna open my eyes so they thought im asleep despite the noise. super fun when hanging out with them la!! x33
dunno wad got into them la.. keep disturbing me today.. somehow yq is not e target today. SHIT! then we took some group pics and head out for dinner.
this is when there is a sudden turning point. due to family probs ( which i dun wanna type out..) my mum insist that i go over to ahma house. i told her i will not be that early.. play with nc gang at least play till 11 de mah~ then she like super bu shuang.. smsed a bit more then she say if i you xin i will not go lan with the nc ppl and go ahma house. it makes no sense to me la! i mean, its like wad? pick family or friends. i cant possibly ps them nn go off de mah.. and i dun wanna... mum always insist i go back early when there is this kind of nc gathering, like the whole big group. bloody saddening to know how much fun u missed after looking at their pics. tried to explain to her that she dun need me there to warm up e crowd and that she can do it herself by taking the cards out and asking people to play. then i dunno wads wrong with her she dun wanna reply me. so i call her, wanna ask if i can go home maybe slightly later at bout 10.30 - 11. she pick up e phone, very rudely ask 'wad u wan?' then im like ' can i go home like slightly later?' cos i thought they will be playing cards till damn late mah.. i didnt even get to finish my sentence before she pass the phone to my dad. then my dad was like ' wad u wan? ur mummy dun wan talk to u' like wtf ?!?! wad did i do? i haven even started negotiating. was beside yq they all when he said that. i was so sad my tear are overflowing.. heng i manage to control. randomly replied a 'nothing' to my dad and hang up the phone. briefly told yq bout it. she has roughly the same thinking as me. i dun wanna go back so early.. but then if i dont, mum will be super upset. maybe dad too. thought for very long whether to stay with the nc gang or to go papa house (ahma at papa house)..
kept super quiet.. totally no mood to talk at all.. in fact i cant talk.. im suppressing my tears la. if i start talking or thinking about it i sure cry de lo... qj, yq, js, gavin, jk and wj tried to make me laugh~ esp js nn qj. tried my best to smile back cos i dun wan them to worry. the moment i left them for papa house. tears started flowing.. heng got bring tissue. =.= cried like a baby at the bus interchange nn on the bus la! ahhh.... realli wanted a shoulder to lean on and people telling me its okay. but im alone so i thought jus let the tears flow la.. will dry up soon.. manage to stop it when i reach papa house.. those people are already playing cards la!! laughin like nobodys business. making noise... cant help it. went to the toilet to cry again.
totally ignored my mum after that till now. even when i go play cards, i sit beside mama instead of mummy. mum was like 'here got seat here got seat' but i dun wan. she may feel like 'talking to me' now but i dun wanna talk to her. its too depressing to think that my mum force me this way to go home. i thought everyone was in a bad mood and decided to come home but they re all playing cards! like wthh did u call me come for? help u entertain ahma? pull me away from my pals n gals? i dunno wad to think. like all the negative thoughts are filling my mind and somehow, all of them hurts. and u know wads worse? i think my mum told my 5th nn 9th aunt bout it or something. they 2 keep attitude me. my ahma ask me eat dinner le ma? i say i dun feel like eating so never eat, jus pei my friends eat nia. then ahma ask me eat i was like' no mood' cos realli no mood mah~ my 5 th aunt came over nn like shouted at me ' jus say u eat le jiu hao, say wad no mood!' im a bit shocked.. a bit being shot. but dun wanna reply so i jus say, ' yah... eat le eat le..' then walk off... kept leaning onto my ahma today. ahma realise something is wrong with me, but my dad, dunno purposely or wad, go tell my ahma that maybe nothing happen la, jus tired cos i woke up early today. aham ask is it true, i jus say yah~ then smile cos i dun wan her to worry. then can see 9th aunt also attitude me cos u know when playing cards that time, my cousin can make a lot of noise but if i laugh a bit louder she will start staring.. bloody irritating. ahhh!!!!
the best part about going to ahma house today is that i ate steamboat with mama papa nn ah ben. jus had fun chatting random stuffs... so simple but sweet~~
dunno wads the problem with adults la! like seriously. i dun freakin hell care wad ahma did to 9th aunt la! know that she dun realli fancy me and the feeling is mutual. but i LOVE ahma papa nn mama!! i grew up with them!!! i dun care wad u adults wanna do, start war or something but im not taking sides. and dun get me caught in between! im a neutral state okay!!!!! GET ME OUT OF IT!
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